The uninvited blue

That was the moment

Everything was falling in place
But I see them falling apart now.
Just a minute ago,
My mind said-
You've got all reasons to be happy.
But now, here it is again,
A heap of sadness
Blocking and hitting
Against every glance and at every step
I put forward.
There is not a thing
I can think straight
I lay down, my eyes fixed
The heaviness crushing me
I know nothing
What is it eating me
But all I know is
There is gloominess all over me
I wish I could peel it off
I hate this
Because I do not want to be sad
I demand a reason
Why am I sad
Not that I have remedy
For all that crippling me
At least I want to work on them
And, afterall
I deserve happiness, don't I?